100 Subscribers! Huge Thank You!
Being the sentimental old fool I am, I'm going to write a blog post to thank everyone who subscribed to my channel recently and especially the people that stuck with me over the years. You guys really are awesome.
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I started a gaming channel years ago around the same time Amnesia: The Dark Descent came out - like a lot of other people seemed to do. I still remember the day I decided to start a channel very clearly. I was working a job I absolutely hated at the time and at the end of my shift, I stopped by EB Games (not sponsored lol, that just happened to be the closest game store to where I worked) and picked up Amnesia and a few other games. Age of Empires 2 was one I believe.
After that I was passing this gift shop that was across from the games store and there were these little statues of two black cats in the window. I like cats but I've always been more of a dog person, so it was sort of odd that I was so taken with them. I went in and I bought them. (This is relevant to the story, trust me)
Anyways, so I was inspired to see what all the fuss was about with Amnesia, but I believe the first video on my channel was Indiana Jones and the Infernal Machine. It has been one of my all time favorite games for years and I was so surprised to see how many other people seemed to have enjoyed it too. That was awesome.
This is kind of a side note, but that's the thing I love about the internet. I wish I'd had it as a kid. Ha, when I was a kid... lol, we had floppy discs that were actually floppy. And dos computers with black screens that you had to type commands into... I know: "Steady on there grandma with the flashbacks". Makes me feel old thinking about all that.
Oh but I digress, I love the net because you feel less alone in certain things. There's more chance of meeting people more like yourself. I was definitely an outcast growing up. Mostly by choice really, a lot of the time. I just didn't fit in. I can't say I really found people I had a lot in common with until late high school.
Funniest thing is I didn't actually realize I was supposed to socialize with other kids until I left preschool and went into year one at a different school. I don't know what I did at preschool... I remember vaguely playing in the sandpit by myself or looking at books. I think once I tried to play with some other girls who were in this cubby house they'd set up for kids outside. They told me they were already friends and to go away. That didn't really bother me that much until year one when I noticed everyone seemed to have friends... It was like it suddenly dawned on me: "oh I'm supposed to try to talk to these people... Oooh." Haha.
I'm not getting out the violin for myself by the way. I've always been sort of quiet, awkward person. I preferred my own company. I was an only child, I spent most of my time either watching tv or with my grandparents and their dog as a kid haha. So... yeah. I've always sort of been more comfortable with the older folk or animals probably for that reason.
Anyways, haha, wow... getting back to my original point (if we can even recall what that was)...
Oh right. Feeling part of something and not feeling alone. Right. That's what having my youtube channel has done for me. In more ways than one.
Not only was I in a crappy job when I started this channel, I had also been in a very crappy (to say the least) relationship for a long time. I never realized how awful it truly was until now having moved on. So the channel gave me that feeling of not being as alone as I felt at the time.
I had to stop recording/uploading videos for a long time due to health problems - I had pneumonia at one point, after which my health continually deteriorated. I ended up having to quit my job and I worked from home for a while. The "relationship" I was in was abusive, not to mention the numerous instances of him cheating on me with anything that had a pulse over the years (and last, not least with a cousin who is at least 15 years older than him... Ew...)
So I finally left.
I took a suitcase and Wynston (my dog if you're new here) and I left. Everything else I'd worked for for the last 9 years I had to leave behind. Including personal things I'd had since I was a child, my mother's only wedding picture, photos, clothes, books... All of which this person decided to discard. He told me he'd donated it to charity, but the charity he claimed to have "donated" my things to, doesn't exist...
I lost my things, but I still have a lot to be thankful for.
I still have my fur baby Wynston and I met my now fiance through my youtube channel due to similar interests and he's been massively supportive and encouraged me to keep going with my channel. He, by the way - has two black cats (I told you that was relevant :p). Haha, I don't know. I'd like to think that was foreshadowing or some kind of sign... Just odd that on the day I decide to start a youtube channel I buy a statue thing of two black cats and I meet the love of my life who has two black cats! Crazy right?
Anyways, it's awesome I have someone who is endlessly supportive because I was diagnosed with CFS last year and fibromyalgia this year, rending me unable to work or do a lot of simple things. Showering, cleaning, cooking, just leaving the house are all painful things now. My concentration isn't what it used to be due to "fibro fog" as they call it, so I have difficulty doing things I used to love like reading, video games, etc unless I pace myself on the "good days" when I have some energy and even then it's in fairly short bursts compared to how I used to game or read. Hence sometimes I may not be able to keep up with the uploading schedule, but I try to record as much as I can when I have a good day or the energy.
So it might seem silly or "lame" to some people, but my channel is one of the fun/nice things I have left at the moment in terms of things I feel like I can do... The place where I've always felt less alone. So hopefully you'll see why 100 subs after all this time means so much to me.
Thank you so much everybody. Really. I mean it.
Cookies for everyone! xx😊
I started a gaming channel years ago around the same time Amnesia: The Dark Descent came out - like a lot of other people seemed to do. I still remember the day I decided to start a channel very clearly. I was working a job I absolutely hated at the time and at the end of my shift, I stopped by EB Games (not sponsored lol, that just happened to be the closest game store to where I worked) and picked up Amnesia and a few other games. Age of Empires 2 was one I believe.
After that I was passing this gift shop that was across from the games store and there were these little statues of two black cats in the window. I like cats but I've always been more of a dog person, so it was sort of odd that I was so taken with them. I went in and I bought them. (This is relevant to the story, trust me)
Anyways, so I was inspired to see what all the fuss was about with Amnesia, but I believe the first video on my channel was Indiana Jones and the Infernal Machine. It has been one of my all time favorite games for years and I was so surprised to see how many other people seemed to have enjoyed it too. That was awesome.
(img source: http://www.sharegif.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/05/8-Step-Brothers-quotes.gif)
This is kind of a side note, but that's the thing I love about the internet. I wish I'd had it as a kid. Ha, when I was a kid... lol, we had floppy discs that were actually floppy. And dos computers with black screens that you had to type commands into... I know: "Steady on there grandma with the flashbacks". Makes me feel old thinking about all that.
Oh but I digress, I love the net because you feel less alone in certain things. There's more chance of meeting people more like yourself. I was definitely an outcast growing up. Mostly by choice really, a lot of the time. I just didn't fit in. I can't say I really found people I had a lot in common with until late high school.
(img source: https://media4.giphy.com/media/uaBRMwesFJ0EE/200_s.gif)
I'm not getting out the violin for myself by the way. I've always been sort of quiet, awkward person. I preferred my own company. I was an only child, I spent most of my time either watching tv or with my grandparents and their dog as a kid haha. So... yeah. I've always sort of been more comfortable with the older folk or animals probably for that reason.
Anyways, haha, wow... getting back to my original point (if we can even recall what that was)...
Oh right. Feeling part of something and not feeling alone. Right. That's what having my youtube channel has done for me. In more ways than one.
Not only was I in a crappy job when I started this channel, I had also been in a very crappy (to say the least) relationship for a long time. I never realized how awful it truly was until now having moved on. So the channel gave me that feeling of not being as alone as I felt at the time.
I had to stop recording/uploading videos for a long time due to health problems - I had pneumonia at one point, after which my health continually deteriorated. I ended up having to quit my job and I worked from home for a while. The "relationship" I was in was abusive, not to mention the numerous instances of him cheating on me with anything that had a pulse over the years (and last, not least with a cousin who is at least 15 years older than him... Ew...)
So I finally left.
(img source: https://media.tenor.com/images/9236cfb7279491e0acc360ffb806283c/tenor.gif)
I took a suitcase and Wynston (my dog if you're new here) and I left. Everything else I'd worked for for the last 9 years I had to leave behind. Including personal things I'd had since I was a child, my mother's only wedding picture, photos, clothes, books... All of which this person decided to discard. He told me he'd donated it to charity, but the charity he claimed to have "donated" my things to, doesn't exist...
I lost my things, but I still have a lot to be thankful for.
I still have my fur baby Wynston and I met my now fiance through my youtube channel due to similar interests and he's been massively supportive and encouraged me to keep going with my channel. He, by the way - has two black cats (I told you that was relevant :p). Haha, I don't know. I'd like to think that was foreshadowing or some kind of sign... Just odd that on the day I decide to start a youtube channel I buy a statue thing of two black cats and I meet the love of my life who has two black cats! Crazy right?
Anyways, it's awesome I have someone who is endlessly supportive because I was diagnosed with CFS last year and fibromyalgia this year, rending me unable to work or do a lot of simple things. Showering, cleaning, cooking, just leaving the house are all painful things now. My concentration isn't what it used to be due to "fibro fog" as they call it, so I have difficulty doing things I used to love like reading, video games, etc unless I pace myself on the "good days" when I have some energy and even then it's in fairly short bursts compared to how I used to game or read. Hence sometimes I may not be able to keep up with the uploading schedule, but I try to record as much as I can when I have a good day or the energy.
So it might seem silly or "lame" to some people, but my channel is one of the fun/nice things I have left at the moment in terms of things I feel like I can do... The place where I've always felt less alone. So hopefully you'll see why 100 subs after all this time means so much to me.
Thank you so much everybody. Really. I mean it.
(img source: http://i.imgur.com/13kazqP.gif)
Cookies for everyone! xx😊
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